One word does it all…I have the faith in myself and I know what I want out of my life…of others…of people,things….and I know how to live it through…Somehow, I feel things would have been so simple only if I knew what I wanted out of myself… I realized…I have lost the most important thing to live…Strength to be me, live on my own, without any help,dependency…my freedom..independence…Why does everything seem to be such a struggle…why can’t things be simpler,smooth,fun….why can’t I enjoy change,variety and life as it comes…I want to change the world and mostly myself…my attitude…no tension…relax and live it just once and for all…feel my presence and make it felt…I know I had lived like that earlier and now I am a loner…which is okay…absolutely fine as that is what I wanted…but there is something else I wanted too…is to win it all and make a grand living for self and reach where I can only dream and people never imagine or actually give up imagining,being satisfied and content with all that they have…
Career,I have felt the ambitious drive within me can kill me and make me feel doped if I carry a hang of it…it is dangerous and pressurizing to the nerve…but somehow it doesn’t go…and the worst is I never make it go…and there is no peace and no effort and everything goes vain…there is no lack of any motivation but there is no strong sense of purpose…world needs a change and so do I….it is the most basic need of any existence…I see the fall leaves change color and see the winter wind blowing and changing direction every now an then…then why and how can I halt and give up…It’s time for me to act upon everything I ever wanted to live and live the moment which noone else has; as it is and will be my moment forever.
AB
April 10, 2010 at 4:15 am
As you said… “It’s time for me to act upon”… better late than never
My Good wishes with you.. and believe me..if you have the conviction you can make impossible happen.
And about why not till now… dear, you must understand that you go through various phases in your life… its not necessary that things will be the same all the time. May be something else was on your priority before. And it keep on changing with time. You can now make a move with your utmost zeal and passion to achieve the excellance
KT
June 2, 2010 at 5:41 pm
Same pinch…!!!
This explains why we r such good friends…!! even though we are way far…same things happening with us …..dittooo…..